Well,

Things are going really well, i have been getting out alot, Meeting new people. and im really suprisingly comfortable with it all... With people and places and doing things i never thought id do again. Its so suprising sometimes i wonder if its real. or how long its gonna last.

Had a few minor bad experiences with some assholes but hey... Bound to happen being single again i guess... Im back out and Doing more in 3 months than ive done in the last 3 years. Running into old friends and pickin up old hobbies. I fricken did karaoke and i have the worst stage fright in the world! lol Im doing good

My art is Booming again, My social life is Booming again, i cant find time for my kitties like i used to....

Contemplating hiring an assistant... or taking a vacation. I was riding on E for a while there... just got so excited to be out and about, i forgot to sleep or eat or rest...
Finally got sick and ended my fun... lol

Realizing more and more everyday. About my future possibilites and my self (strenghts weakness's etc)
here i thought there wasnt much growing left to do besides just feeling better, now im getting better, getting out and all of a sudden Life started all over agian :0 ) duh right?.... lol
Thanks so much for everyones support threw everything this last year That ive been on Dev Art. *hugs* It meant the world.

well.

Got my new set up. Finally back up and running, been doing alot of paintings since my internet was out..
Ill try to get those up soon.

Done a little writing as well and hoping to come out with a little personal publishing of my poetry and fav art pieces...
I'll Let you all know how that goes.

Catchin up with old friends lately and getting better at being my old self again. Its weird being single again. I dont want to rush into anything but at the same time i wonder if i will even like anyone, more than a physical attraction.

But anyways, Back to Business. I have done some more prints/Flyers for Omalleys Bar & Grill- They have live entertainment 5 days a week so Its begun to spread the word a bit.
Plus now they want me to do some stuff for there webpage and other promotional stuff.

Looking good. Feelin bored alot still but better in all.
Gettin back in the swing

No one entered my halloween contest- sort of upsetting but i have been so busy lately that its okay....

Although i question WHY?? no spirit??= no one carved pumpkins???= no one likes me?????
whatever...

***BUT HELP****
My computer Fried- well my monitor did and now im thinking of upgrading the whole thing. I have been trying to get Painter to try a different kind of art, but i cant find it for pc (i only find a mac version). Can someone tell me if i need a Mac or if there is a similar program to Painter that i can use for pc?????

sorry no good stuff lately, sort of wondering where to go now. with my art i mean. I've been learning alot of stuff and can do alot of different sorts of art, i.e Painting drawing photography 3d art and crafts, designing, decorating.. taking a stained glass class soon and perhaps voice lessons for fun and to get over my agoraphobia this winter... hopefully.
With Photoshop and a few other programs i have realized art is endless and i can do almost anything. And now im confused... What do people like- what should i do?

I dont know what sort of things will be coming up. I will probably be making some christmas cards and such for my family and friends and if anyone wants to use them feel free to steal my cards...
i need my subscription back... i miss it
oh there is so much going on i think im headed for a nervous breakdown all over again...
**breathe breathe breathe *** lol

I'm doing a Halloween Contest To keep me busy and get cool halloween theme going around this place!

I have selected 2 seperate catagories....

One is anything goes:
A Halloween Art contest.
photography, digital art, traditional art- its all good.
Judged on Best Halloween Spirit!

The second is Pumpkin Carving :
Submit your Best Pumpkin Carving Photo!
Judged on carving alone...

Must be Halloween Theme scary or sweet.
You may enter both area's but only one entry per catagory.

The Top 2 Winners of both catagories will be featured in my next journal and

1st place wins a random print (12x12 or smaller) from their own wishlist!

1 winner for each catagory- come on this will be fun!

Entries Due by Saturday - October 28th.

I hope too see ALOT of PARTICIPATION PEOPLE!


**to enter just send me a note titled "Contest"
with a link to your submittion ***

Okay ive been working really hard on a logo and webdesign for MME. It is pretty neat work concidering i havent done anything for anyone in a while and im learning alot everyday. Things i took the hard way doing yesterday- Today i find i can do with the click of a button.

My panic attacks have been getting worse, me and my bf ( i thought soon to be hubby) are probably going to be splitting up. for good. Hes been an ass in the past but never like he has been lately and we are both under alot of stress but. I just cant justify how he has been treating me lately. He knows my agoraphobia is a huge struggle for me and he knows how hard ive been working to keep our lives together and how important my art is to me and he has been talking to me like its all junk. My entire life is worthless. Hes never treated me like this and He doesnt seem to care enough to stop.

I feel like im going to be moving out soon. Which sucks for me for alot of reasons. Part of me feels though that maybe getting away from all this will help me get better faster. Hes always been supportive in the past and has helped me get better and better for years. I just think maybe subconciously ive been held back by him as well.
certainly right now it feels hes trying to hurt me on purpose so.
I dont know hes never been like this so i probably shouldnt be saying these things. Hes been an ass before but Never has he made me feel small. or like my life was worthless. Who would do that?

I dont know i just thought id spill some out and hopefully feel better.
I dont have alot of close people and sadly my closest friends are on DA.
Talk to you all soon if i can stop feeling depressed long enough to do my art. or post it.
I finished a painting and have been doing alot of graphic design but. Just dont feel up to being on the computer too much. IM HIBERNATING IN MY BEDROOM. thats how i know its bad. My kitties are keeping me sane.
God i feel pathetic right now.. My panic attacks are so bad that i cant even go out to see what little friends i have and with randy around here i cant have them over.
Not like i have any anyways...